Tired

What's so special about life? I find myself pondering on what i need to do now. Why i have to keep doing these things when i know i've gone past that stage and beyond. Sometimes i feel like it's a never ending vicious cycle. One that doesn't stop changing, one that doesn't get better. Makes me think, what if i sleep tonight and never wake up? What if i walk across the street and get run over by a car? What then? Shall i get a new lease in life then? Will my life get better after? I'm tired and i want to have something to look forward to. Is that too much to ask?